The Color Pink

January 12, 2010
                          I am at the bowling alley with my family having a blast. The women are finally beating the men. My phone rings. I answer and it is Dr. Imami. He asked if I had time to talk and I said yes. I went to the ladies room because it was quieter in there. He then told me the news I thought I would never hear at the age of 24. He said we biopsyed the tumor and found that it was cancer. CANCER......CANCER......CANCER! Those words echoed in my ear  for at least five minutues. I told him okay that is cool. I am not surprised for my mom had breast cancer. He seemed a little surprised by my calm yet cheerful response. To be honest I really didn't have an emotion at that time. Maybe I was in denial who knows. I went back out and told my family the news. I couldn't hold it in. My husband immdiately broke down in tears. My mom looked at me in shock. My sister said stop joking Tiff. I told them I wasn't joking. Wow this is akward I thought, well lets finish bowling so I can kick you guys butt. We finished bowling and I bowled a 116. Whoo hoo! On the ride home I was numb.....so numb!

That night I had a long talk with God.....I was praying for a word He gave me Isaiah 41:10-13
It reads

10 Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed ; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness. 11 Behold, all they that were incensed against thee shall be ashamed and confounded : they shall be as nothing; and they that strive with thee shall perish . 12 Thou shalt seek them, and shalt not find them, even them that contended with thee: they that war against thee shall be as nothing, and as a thing of nought. 13 For I the LORD thy God will hold thy right hand, saying unto thee, Fear not; I will help thee.

This message truly ministered to me that night and I began to praise the Lord. For I knew if he brought me to it he would bring me through it. I knew I had nothing to fear and I told the Lord that I night that I would trust him every step of the way!